uploaded a song and incorporated into my blog... its a super nice song n one of my fav right nw...

Will you stand by me? hold on, and never let me go?

last night my big toe nearly got crushed my own bare hands... i closed the metal gate with my feet still outside... n usually, i jus slamed it shut... n my toe got stuck in between... ouch... super pain... luckily i merely used 30% of my power... if not...

a few points to ponder... watever we bought nowadays are from, made in china... shoes... clothes... machines... kitchen utensils... n now... buildings are made in china!! can u believe it? the HDB flats near bedok mrt are constructed by a china firm... wonder if its safe to live in? haha... hmm... one thing for sure... my kids wont be made from china... haha... it will be made in singapore... local brand... haha...

funni thing happened while in lesson todae... there are grps doing their presentations... n one of the grps actually give out flowers to the class... n after lesson, a guy from tat particular actually came over, approached denise n gave her a flower... and he said its a left-over... wondered if its really "left-over" flower... haha... but she broke his fragile heart by turning it down straight... haha... fierce sia her... haha...

pressure is on... pressure to do well for tmr... i will prevail... i will be prepared, focused, geared up for tmr... no mistakes this time round... last sem made alot of careless n idiotic mistakes... but not nw... no room for errors...

feel so weak... totall weak... been a few weeks since i last had a proper training... nw i'm struggling... so exhausted after jus 2 sets... 3 more to go... sian... gaining strength is difficult... but losing it, ur muscles is veri easy... u jus sit n relax... n everything is gone after a few days... gonna start maintain my body from nw on...

met up with ken, shao n cenying for lunch this afternoon... haha... a welcome lunch to my dear bro visiting nus... haha... hope he had a nice experience... haha... waited for ken to consult his tutor n then go home together... gosh... it was super long... luckily got his lappy ard... n we challenge miniclip on golf... haha... but we nv finished it... cos halfwae thru, we navigate to other pages accidentally... haha...

the journey home was a killer... even through we took train, the 3 of us doze off on the ride back... the veri first time the 3 of us became so quiet... haha...

back to training... n then study... i must score well this wed... a must... no excuses this time...

something is wrong with my msg tag... don no wats wrong with it... but... i will sort it out... when i free?

yesterdae had fun at gary's place... haha... the house was crowded... cos her sis invited her frens over too... not bad... haha... interesting experience... met a so-called fren... haha... an ex-trainee back in camp last yr... past few days keep bumping into people from my unit... last week met up with lynn's fren... from commando too... but his power is more than my power... haha... but anyway... it doesnt matter anymore... haha...

dinner was nice with red wine from don n stace... thanks!! haha... and a couple of gambling sessions too.. haha... gary was the biggest winner... perhaps due to his homegrd advantage...

been a couple of yrs since i last visited gary's house... everything is still much the same... but this time, the variables, thats us... became older... realli cherished the past... its so carefree n crazy... we used to went gary's house for playstation in sec sch... marvel vs x-men? haha... our fav game which i nv failed to thrash the rest... n every visit, either ken or vin will hide under gary's table... funni right... due to space constraint... haha... n ken's fav activity where he will shout from the house to the gana gurin man downstairs n then hide... leaving the latter puzzled... haha... n not to mention gary's sis... used to hide in her room and watch tv, shy... n nw shes interacting with us... haha... how times flies... how i wished time could stood still in the past... but.... life gotta move on right... starting with econs test on wed... sianz... haha

completed my hat-trick of having a bad night for three days... for the past 2 nights, i dozed off onli at 4am... tried to slp with a slightly hungry stomach... cos i been trying to work on my policy of removing "supper" from my menu... to further aid me in cutting dwn some unwanted, unsightly fats... but... i failed... the slight hunger snowballed into a famine. no matter how i tossed n turned in bed, i couldnt slp at all... to prevent my bed from catching fire, i decided to feast on my fav hello panda... haha... it realli helps... doze off immediately after snacking on it... whaha...

my toes are a bit swollen... fulfilled the status of "gd son" last night by volunterring to do the dishes after cutting mama's cake... in the end, a damn plate slipped off the kitchen table and landed right on the joints of my toes... the pain is undescribable... i was left immobile for a few mins... anywae... the blackforest cake is disappointing... doesnt taste fantastic at all... neither its impressive... the standard of bengawang solo had drop drastically...

gonna read the papers nw...

wa... i been staying home since tue!! haha... n for the past few days, i didnt shave at all... had a little small beard... haha... todae is mummy birthdae... waiting for sis to come home so can cut the cake... i been eyeing tat blackforest for a long time lo... yum yum... haha...

suddenly feel tat everydae passed by super fast... last fri we jus had our steamboat n fooling ard session... n nw a week had passed!! after a blink of eye, 1 week break is gone jus like tat... sian... gonna had last round of fun tmr... after which, gonna work hard le... no more fun till after exams...

next wed econs test... i must score well... to make up my misery of my prev test... RoaR!!! HUAT AR

so freaking tired... last night couldnt slp at all... sucks... got a massive headache late last night... popped some pills n tried to go dreamland... but i think i missed the last bus there... sian... n the weather was too warm as well... switched on the fan but it doesnt help at all... cos the speed is like a tornado... besides the wind from the fan is too "artificial"... in the end tried the air-con... but its too cold... n i didnt slp till 4am+... damn... nw got eye bags circulating my poor eyes...

tried to design namecard for my marketing proj... finally completed it!! whaha... at least one thing on the agenda accomplished... later still gotta read up the damn text n then revise some stuff... lect on thermal heat is super chim... formulas are driving me nuts... i will get thru it somehow...

yawn... physically awake but mentally worn out...

wat a great start to my new yr... i had been getting scoldings n fucking sessions from don no when... realli sick of it...

last night got a call from jun, tio fuck by him cos i'm unable to join the rest for a MOVIE? ya i knw... my fault for not informing u but why cant u all jus go ahead? i got house visitings n wat so ever... cant possibly to remember n update everyone... n tat retard keep scolding non-stop... as if i own him a life... n last night, i jus don wan to argue, cos i already sick n tired of it.... jus let it be...

from other people's point of view, everyone sae wat... my sis is gd to me? treat me gd? my ass... keep commanding here n there... as if i m her servant... ya.. she gave me $30 every month? so wat? why dont i give her $100 instead n command her ard then? n i'm always the one who helped her with her work n everything... even though i haven finish mine...

n for the rest, when i dont pick up ur call, its because... 1) i am sleeping 2) i am busy... so no point keep calling n calling like a bitch... n i jus hate it whenever i picked up the call n people start shooting off "wa lan eh... call ur hp nv pick up... wat the hell u doing sia"

let me make my point clear... i don own anyone a living or an answer unless they are my parents... i got my own life so do u... n i got my own space n privacy... pls respect it...

i need peace... real silent... maybe i got too much frens... too mani people to entertain... its time for me to sharpen my wielding knife n cut some unwanted weeds away... its time to stop treating everyone so nice... n they jus took it for granted at times... its so hard, difficult to be nice... maybe that is why there are so mani fuckers ard... maybe i shall be one... i would rather piss people off than be pissed by others...

super tiring dae for me... totally gonna shut dwn... super long dae... i was out for 14hrs? from 3pm till nw.. jus got home... li hai ba...

went to catch a movie with my parents... haha... a nice experience... watched the movie "just follow law"... i find its a veri nice show... maybe for a lame guy like me will appreciate such movies... haha... fann wong acting is gd!! i'm totally fazed n impressed... for most guys, maybe they will like a feminine woman... but not me? i like her character in the movie... chor lor type... haha... but not tat extreme la... i rate the show at 8/10... nice...

after movie, dine with parents at Jack's place... the food is nice!! i can see papa tearing apart the spring chicken the moment he got his food... haha...

after dinner, went over to ken's house to buy some time off... cos meeting the rest for a chill out session at clarke quay...

we went over to fashion bar n the place is nicely decorated... the ambience is nice as well... chill out n played some games... damn... as my dear bro, gary is not ard, i got all the shit... ended up drinking the most... n feeling a bit wasted... haha... lynn's fren, barry lost a challenge n he is to approach one of the 2 gals sitting opp of us... well, he took quite some time to gather his guts to go over.. ard 1 hr? woooh... if i were him, i would fly over the next min... haha...

in the end, he went over... finally... haha... well, they were not bad, sportty n came over to join us... not bad looking as well!! haha... but in the end, ken, steve, me n yong went off early as yong wanted to go ktv pub... but... yong left during the supper session... haha... n we went back to catch up with the rest... nice... a chance for me to catch up with one of the gals... xiao wei... haha... not bad though... a poly student at nyp, studying nursing... guys, think straight... haha... not bad for me, cos i got her msn... whahaha...

after another chill out session at tcc, we head to pool fusion at 3+am in the morning? fierce right... haha... remember the gal whom smiled at me n i wished her a happy vdae last tues? she smiled at me todae again... jus melt my fragile heart... haha...

i think i need to work on my jokes... cos everyone jus give me a crazy look whenever i mention one... damn... gotta slp nw... waking up in 2 hrs time to go aunt place... fierce right...

hw times realli flies... todae was at grandma house... the house is super lively... kids were running ard, playing here n there... i used to do tat when i was young... but not nw though... let me count... my grandma had 8 sons, 3 daughters... n a total of... actually i dont no how mani cousins i had... 23? if i'm not wrong... haha... fierce right... the younger cousin was super cute!! n super light though... carried him ard... haha...

evening went over to ken's place... wooh... his father is a real killer... 1st time in my life withnessed tat u win nothing even though u had blackjack? super fierce...

tmr watching movie with parents... haha... 1st time watching a movie with them... so exciting... haha...

todae spent the whole day cleaning up my room, tidying stuff... mopping the floor n helping ard the house... not bad right... i think i can be a gd houseman in the future... haha... i'm such a gd catch... will be a future gd husband? currently a gd student n a gd son... whaha... wat more can u get? whahaha

something i discovered while cleaning up my untidy dog shed... the damn owl fig had been ard for yrs in my room n now... i discovered its a coin boX!!! how exciting... hahah...

gonna mop the floor nw... haha...

finally, new yr eve is here!!! haha... as i looked out from my room, some of the households are up... yet i jus got home... whahaha... fierce right...

dinner was not bad todae... had a wonderful gathering... but i was super clumsy... as usual... been banging into lots of things at shao house... the chair... the cupboard... haha... dinner was cool... cos i was saying too much crappy stuff... haha... gary said i was too lame... but i dont think so... i think its still ok ma... right bro? hahah...

after dinner, we watched a movie... not bad the show... it was nice... haha... had a gambling session... hahah... my luck was quite impressive... haha... on a winning streak... but in the end, lost much of it back... but its ok... jus for the fun... haha...

yawn... super tired... i gonna slp like nobody business!! haha

sianz... first thing i noticed when i looked into the mirror this morning... 2 PIMPLES!!! ARhhh... nearly went crazy... but due to time constraint as i was running late, i went crazy for 5 mins onli... super sian... the new yr goodies made a major impact... major destruction... guessed must be the pineapple tarts... cos i ate really a lot... at the start there were 3 containers of it... nw left 1 standing... hhaha... but anyway... i still got my style n cool factor... so not so bad...

lect todae was a real killer... the beloved indian lecturer spoke too much!! like an indian bullet train... basically he was jus rushing things thru... tried to catch some balls... but didnt grab any... sian... didnt paid attention for a spilt sec n thats it already... need to do alot of self studying lo...

currently.... i shall put all my studies aside... work shall resume on tues? i hope so... shall enjoy myself from todae onwards... in fact, NOW!!! gonna prepare for reunion dinner with bros n sisters... crazy fun is back... whahahahahahahaha....

felt irritated, pissed, lost of words or i cant find any words to describe my feelings right nw... i got this wonderful fren who seemed to keep relying on me... n everything is dependent on me! this wonderful nv turned up for any lects n didnt do the so called "self-revision" n relied on me to teach him/her... at first i thought its ok... frens should help one another? well... wrong... even he/she attended the lect... he/she will nv ever pay attention n either keep talking or doing his/her stuff... when it comes to impt points, obviously he/she nv listen, n starts asking me abt it... when i repeat the prev points, i also got lost abt the later parts... so basically, i can jus shut down like him/her for the rest of the lesson... jus hated it... why cant he/she jus pay attention n get over it? nw i jus feel so dragged dwn... when i teach, he/she dont even knw the most basic point which sums up my frustration...

new yr is back again so fast...

was supposed to stay home n sulk n read some stuff... but i went out with ken... haha... weird right... 2 men went out together...

supposed to go to balestier for ba kut teh... but the traffic jam is real bad on PIE... then decided to head to chinatown for prawn noodles... haha... but all roads to chinatown is jammed too... in the end settled for prawn noodles at lavender food sq... nice... the prawn noodles... u will nv get sick of eating it 10times? 20times? haha...

after dinner... as usual... went for a pool session... haha... think its the place where all the singles go too... cos its filled with guys... haha... a gay place? nah... the counter gal was there... not bad... she smiled at me!! twice ba i guess... b4 i left i wished her happy vdae n she smiled... whaha... i played not too gd todae... but i still won... haha...

fri is our reunion dinner!!! think it will be a huge crowd at shao's place... think ard 15 or more people ba... haa... fierce right... haha...

hmm... read thru eva payaya blog... she labelled me "crazy xzr"... haha... am i crazy? whahahah... hmm... a debatable qns... i be super crazy when it comes to fun... those who witnessed it... keep it to urself... haha... forgot to blog abt a major happening yesterdae... while moving forward to drw money from the atm machine at bedok interchange, i tripped n became superman... n slammed hard into the machine... 2 aunties were beside me on the other 2 machines turned n looked at me... they must be thinking... wats up with this kid... so despo to drw money... haha... anyway, happy vdae to u eva!! haha

morning test was a sucker... jus made my morning n beginning of the day real bad... for the lab test... i got 3/12!! this was like 12% of my final grade? i was real stunned... i missed out one portion n thats it already... sianz... whine the whole morning... haha... wanted to go home n sulk at home... but seemed to be useless cos if i skip afternoon lect... tmr i gotta go sch which is my off day? in the end, met up with cenying for lunch... i was dead hungry as i jus testing my endurance in the lab... but failed miserably... luckily got her... else i dont no wat to do... blank...

got a pleasant surprised... my fren made me a small simple card... appreciated her effort... with a chocolate on it!! at least it brighten up my dae... doesnt talk to her much in sch de... usually jus some casual chat when i met her on the bus n stuff...

my chinese new yr resolution... gonna work hard after the new yr... final paper in ard 2 months time? first of all, gonna make sure for my next 2 tests... must try to score full marks to make up some lost grd...this is the best i can do nw... next week sem break is a crucial week for me... gotta make sure i finished wat is supposed to be done... so as to ease my mind... haha... gonna shop for new goodies for the 3rd time? cos its realli running low at home... whahaha...

todae presentation was a real joke... don no whether our is too great which led to the class bombing us with useless qns to bring us dwn or basically they are jus a bunch of retards... cant believe this is the questions that uni students will ask...

my marketing proj is abt opening a dog restaurant... which served human n dog food... with a playground for dogs to play... speaking of the playground... i got clowns asking qns such as.... "wat will u do if the dogs fight?" my ans "we will have an employee to look after the place... something like a supernanny... but in dogs context" "o... wat will u all do if 10dogs fight? how many people u think u will need to pull them apart" n my grp was like "????" hello, we were talking abt tamed dogs here... i feel like asking him to ask a more intelligent qns... n i feel like telling him... "first... we will use a whip like wat ringmaster do... if cannot... we use stun gun... if realli realli cannot... we will evacuate n call for SWAT team..." but luckily prof shut the class out cos they are asking nonsense stuff... haha...

chinese new yr ard the corner... but for my house... it started sort of last week... papa n i been snacking the food... haha... nw the goodies are half-gone? esp the pineapple tarts... super nice... every trip to the kitchen is meaningful nw... whahah...

gonna study for my mini test tmr... n then enjoy new yr? i supposed... haha... lots of valentine event in sch... but its jus too over-rated... haha...

this week is one of the busiest week so far... proj stuff to be settled... presentation tmr, a test on wed... jus hoped thurs can come faster... then i can enjoy n relax... but... still got ongoing proj... mid term test as well... chinese new yr not tat enjoyable for the first time...

next week term break shall be a catching session for me... still lacking behind ard 2 webcasts... n some mini revisions as well... to make my mind fresh abt wats being taught so far...

yearn to catch a movie on thurs... if i dont need to go sch on my "off" day... haha... wanted to watch the protege, if i spelled correctly... haha... movie movie movie!!!

when i said i'm not free, it means i'm really not free... no point calling in pairs to say or say the whole thing over n over again... it will jus make my blood boil. sometimes, people may understand or their brains will work much better with the inclusion of coarser languages.

tons of work piling up... i need to get my webcast done, presentation done, survey done, presentation slides to be edited + wed test coming up as well... all to be done tonight... i may looked slack, dont attend sch, skip lect, everyday seems to be having fun but when there is serious work to be done, i will get it done.

i cant breathe... nose is stuck for days or weeks already... trying hard to breathe through my damn nose n got a headache for tryingg too hard...

tmr morning going for a run... been such a long time since i last ran...

going to check out 2 dog cafes tmr! but its purely business... gotta do an analysis of competitors... to make presentation on tues a more impressive one... on the other hand, my first trip to dog cafes... hope will be an eye opening...

chinese new yr approaching... no much mood yet... every yr is just the same... house-visiting, ang baos... eating rou-gan tibits instead of taking proper meals... gambling... all the normal stuff... nothing is new anymore...

this weekend theres no room for slacking anymore... serious work to be done...

hmm... been looking in the mirror many times... my hair looked not bad nw... haha... jus the right length n the right style n cool factor... yeah... thinking of going to dye my hair... but new yr is coming... may have violent objections from relatives... think after new yr ba... do i looked like a loanshark or runner? ahaha... funni comments from ken...

tues met up with this gal... so funni... supposed to club last night... she wanted to tag along? todae she asked me out to pei her shopping but i rejected it... cos been working on proj... but she asked me out again later? a bit fierce n violent... n a bit scared...

sianz... ran out of paper... wonder how to print lect notes for later lect...

a busy week for me... this week supposed to have no sch on wed n thurs... but... work gotta comes first... haha... spent the day working on the proj... presentation next week... hope everything goes well...

poor gary... his day jus got worse... hahah... he lost our fun last night... on top of tat, hes down with food poisoning... 4 of us... with shao, ken n i ate the same dim sum last night... but hes the only who got it... heng... luckily hes with us... if its jus the 3 of us... for sure this will happen to me todae... but with my dear gary... its another different story... whaha... hope he recover asap...

weekend approaching... but guessed most of it will be spent on studying, proj n doing plenty of reading... tons of work is piling... n time to get my engine started... this is the time to cheong towards the final papers... haha...

1 week nv train already... feeling soft... weak... hope my back will heal... soon...

tonight supposed to be the night where i club for the first time this yr? but not anymore... haha... jus received news tat my bro... dearest gary... lost the ticks... haha... but its ok... cos i gonna go out anyway... fun fun fun...

sianz... todae econ lect was a turn off... totally no mood to listen at all... sigh... nw i'm like losing interest in things veri fast... concentration span is short... gotta sort it out...

todae met up with a new fren... shes quite cool though... a mediacorp may phua look-a-like... haha... quite a few confusion set place... but its ok... friendly chap... first time ever... a gal and tats her... dominated the whole conservation... she cant stop talking n laughing... haha... n i find myself sit there n jus listen? first time i became a listener, not my usual self of joking n fooling ard... haha... its gd to be entertained... cool...

wed night will be spent at mos... nice... looking 4ward to my first clubbing in this yr... haha...

lots of work piling up... my to-do list got 5 items... gosh... with 2 readings? nwadays having n experiencing difficulty to read books... my concentration span is getting shorter n shorter... haiz... mood for studying is not there yet... haven fulfilled my potential.... hope my killer instinct will be back...

todae roam ard tampines central to get people to do survey... the result is bad... veri bad... none that i approached offered help? ugly singaporeans... rejections is all i get... think all the helpful, kind singaporeans are dead... or its the minority of the minority? nvm... tmr i shall approach the admin staff from nus... only nus people are willing to help nus people out...

my nose had been stuck for don no how mani days... making me uncomfortable, a bit giddy at times... n also caused my ears to stuck as well whenever i blow my nose... sigh...

i think i am injuried... i cant bend down properly... must had hurt my back while doing exercise last week... my lower back... ouch! hope it will be nothing serious... keke...

don feel like going sch tmr... tmr its merely a 2hr lect... even if i go, its difficult to pay attention... cos i find it more productive to do it at home, which means, i got no sch on monday, wednesday n thursday!! cool... gary got free tickets to mos on wed night... here comes the fun!

nw its mid-day already, gonna read some stuff n read the text for more info... yesterdae slack for the whole day n i feel guilty abt it... haha...

frens ard me are feeling down for one reason or another... jus hope they can pull through n be brave... the worst enemy is urself... which is ur mind... it can be ur most powerful aid or can be the one who can bring u down... its mental... be strong mentally...

todae i slack for the whole day... haha... my job envolved eating, disturbing mom n sis, n reading papers... haha... i lost count of how mani meals i took todae... the flu is still bugging me right nw... but nvm... gave me a gd reason to carry on eating...

wonder wat the world is coming to? the world climate is rapidly changing... changing for the worst... in fact, reports had been released that the ice bergs are melting, sea water rising, more natural diseasters, tsunamics, increased global temp and so on... n best of all, nothing is being done... in fact, the world's biggest economies are doing nothing... US n Cananda contributes to most of the emittion of carbon dioxide and they arent stopping it... why? cos this will slow down their economy? wat a joke... if nothing is being done... there will be no economy cos there is no world to start with? sometimes i wonder how will things diff if Al Gore is the president instead...

woke up this morning with a massive flu... cant taste anything at all... but i can onli tell whether the food is cold... hot... or not too hot or not too cold... n thats it... on the brighter side, i wonder wats up with papa... he bought lots of ba bao... gosh... n i had to stuff those meaty food down my sore throat... hope it will digest... else, i cant imagine those meat becoming part of my body.. haha...

had sore throat too... carried forward from yesterdae ktv session... nw taking sore throat med... hope i can feel better... keke

this weekend, i must keep myself at home! for the first time this yr... haha

anyway i cant remember when is the last time i last spent my full weekend at home... haha...

the last time i went ktv was on my bdae... finally... after a long break, i resumed my king of rock status... haa... had lots of fun singing!! haha... n of cos, we were busy snacking away as well.. sian... guess tmr when i wake up, sure got pimples de...

after singing we were jus hanging ard orchard shopping... nothing much to update abt... gonna catch survivor later!! haha...

starting to regret my decision to skip mon 2 lects... i cant believe i'm at unlucky... first of all... other than last mon econs lect, the rest of the remaining lect slots are all cancelled... which means, gotta attend make-up lect n the probability of it happening on a sat is 1. great. the 2nd lect is a piece of shit. i cant fig out wat benny is trying to sae... cos the voice is somehow blur, disrupted and i cant catch wat is he saying... the disruption noise is driving me crazy... giving me an unnecessary headache... this is so shit... screwed

~Afraid Of~

- Injections
- People tickling me
- Scary movies
- Cockroaches

~DISLIKES~

- My clumsy acts
- Vegatables
- Sci-fic movies
- People who take me for granted
- Latecomers

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- I like to disturb animals
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- Hello Panda
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- Coco krunch with milk every morning
- Milo powder
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- Nature
- Roti Prata
- Melted cheese

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