was fucking pissed n mad... out of the blue she msg me again... wat the hell... isnt she enjoying her life right nw? wat for come n msg me... jus wan to carry on with my life... msg me sae the things i wrote abt her is humilating her... wat a joke... wat i wrote is the truth... it is herself who told me abt it herself... can she denied it? sae left me because i was always with my frens... i merely met them for new yr countdown n a trip to wala wala n then the whole situation explode... jus met them twice n she broke up with me because of it? wat a joke... also sae wan to return me the things i given to her... nah...wan it back for wat... she can throw it away for watever she care....i already don giv it a damn... n do i look tat i care?? n still ask me to sae thanks to my sis for deleting her in friendster... wat a loser.... makes me wan to laugh n pity her at the same time.... haha

got quite alot to update..... first of all.....this sun once again duty....but got off de......so...next week will be a veri happy week for me...cos....tues half dae....wed off....fri half dae again.... n including mon is a public holiday..... wow... hope every week to be like tat....haha... this morning went for my medical... nothing much..which is very unlucky for me....no need to go for operation..... so... save alot of pain for me.... but.....need to take medication as well as watch my health.....drink more water n eat more fruits....shag.....

afternoon went for a swim...a gd swim though... hot sun n nice weather... got a gd tan n a gd swim... next week off dae must go swim again!!! cos theres not much people sun-tanning n swimming....but i discover a thing though... some people go swimming pool jus for a tan....n some of them did not swim nor dip into the pool at all..wat a joke... went swimming pool but did not swim... haha... like wan chicken rice but don wan chicken... wan prawn mee don wan prawn...whahaha

yesterdae got another gd chat with her.... quite interesting....got a couple of things to share and talk abt....but think my hp bill gonna explode....cos already spent much of my hp talktime with her.... cos cant use guardroom phone... but nvm...i don mind also.... haha... shes just goes on n on n on....haha....cant seems to stop..... lucky got her to spend the afternoon n night chatting with me....cos yesterdae had a long dae doing duty.....hope can be like tat whenever i doing duty?? haha... feeling a bit weird todae.....cos theres not a single sound from her.....haha... but jus frens nw ba...

tonight didnt go out....cos got the 9pm channel 8 show tat kept me at home...else....u knw...haha.... tmr going clubbing!! with her.... quite funni how it came abt.... out of the blue thurs she jio me go MOS....but i duty... then i told her tat sat my fren jio me to DXO... n she said that she is one of the invited guest....but shes not going.... in then end she jio me go momo.....haha.... thought maybe to jio her in the end she jio me go.... shag.....haha.... this is interesting.....

feels funni todae... out of the blue michelle msg me n ask me to call her.... well... feel a bit lost.....been a thousand of yrs since i last had a chat with another gal? hmm....4yrs++? don no wat to talk abt also.... but she is talkative... which is gd...haha... chat with her while she works.....help her pass her time as well.... can talk quite a no of things... not bad to have her as a fren though....even though jus surprised the way we came to knw each other till we chat... n she confessed that shes got a fiery temper....wooh.....shag.....another bulldozer? hhaaha... but she sae she will not bully me de....haha.... see how it goes.....

for me... i prefer to be single nw.... more time to be frens....do things that i love n want to do.....make more frens as well... see the world first....to knw wat i wan first.... there are plenty of opportunities awaiting me in future... i jus waiting for the right time n the right chance with the right person... nw i feel i need to change myself.... find that i got plenty of things need to touch up....need to be decisive.... have to get rid of my wan..then don wan n then wan attitude... this type of attitude will get me to nowhere....i believe.... so need to set my mind on a thing n then all the way stick to it.... i wan to be a better person......n to be a perfect person.......

tmr having duty......be home by fri morning n then medical at changi...hope nothing goes wrong for me.... hope wont be hospitalised again this time round.....last yr this timing hospitalised.... hope i can get well....

this few days feel abit funni.....been feeling veri tired......getting shag out easily.....even though slept alot at home and in camp.....i still felt veri tired......n keep wanting to sleep more......more......more....haha.... time for my body to take a rest maybe......so sick of life around me.... keen to make new changes.....but don no how to go abt it.... sat going clubbing maybe....looking for people....haha... fren selling tickets at DXO for $18....plus a free drink.... such a long time since i had fun.....think sat try out different kind of alcohol.... haha....signing off here... don feel like doing anything right nw... jus wan to slp.....haha...

todae is a monday.....doesnt seemed to have any blues todae.....perhaps cos of fri having medical......having a long weekend!!! somemore better news......thurs do guard....then got extra day off!! then gonna take next tues..... hmm... let me count......5 days off!!! wow....looking forward to gd life......fun..... wat so ever.....this is so nice..... gonna have lots of fun though....next tues gonna take final theory......let me count again......my 4th time? hope will be the last... when can i pass the test??? everytime feel veri disheartened..... but....this time.....no more distractions...... so i be concentrated.... n focus to take the test..... but...... i haven study yet.....must put in extra effort this long weekend... have to prove my worth...

Angels can fly because they take themselves lightly; devils fall because of their gravity.

wat a day todae.... history is made todae... i did not go anywhere other than staying home for the whole dae.....haha... didnt went for my swim as scheduled.... cos its another sundae without sun....so its another dae... spent wastefully lazing ard at home... spent the whole afternoon slping n making up lost time.... no matter how hard shaoliang wan to drag me out....i still reject him....haha... think i made him pissed.... sorry bro... haha... feel so awake nw... wonder how i slp later....haha... hope i had a gd week this week....

In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on.

gosh... jus got home... going to be 1am le... haha... shag... long dae todae... last night once again... guard duty... out of the blue somemore... shag... my dae started at 2pm...meet up with juqi...wilson n xiaoyi for movie... sentinel... such a long time i last watched a movie... this is a very gd show..... filled with suspense..action..... i grade it 9 out of 10.... one of the best movies i watched in my life perhaps....haha... after movie meet up with ken... went over to sim lim to acc him to buy stuff......then dinner and our usual activity....POOL!!! spent over 4 hours playing.....haah... tiring physically n mentally..... playing pool n watching soccer at the same time.... wat an enjoyment..... tmr same thing....swimming n getting myself a gd tan.....haha....going to bathe soon..... wat a joke.....jus nw climb all the way up to home.....11 floors......not joking....something is wrong with the lift.....hope it got sorted out soon..... anywae.... took less than 10min to climb up.....impressive right....next time must time myself... this week nv work out at all... a gd time to catch up with my fitness....

latest update: i woke up with 1 new pimple on my face.....ARH!!! wat the hell... kit kat is powerful... haha... need to apply extra extra thick thick pimple cream tonight....

things took a twist in my case... hope to be able to fight for myself... most things are in place... but the onli thing is how am i gonna fight for myself? i'm not going against my peers but going against officers... heard that the retired colonel is kind n approachable... wonder if he believe me or not... anyway... the evidence is there but i jus scared to stand up n make myself heard... tmr is my big dae... my life depend on tmr... but heard from my fren tat the retired colonel is displeased with the way the investigation is conducted... he said that he feels they did not complete it thoroughly... wonder it meants... anywae... i gained a lot of experience from this particular lesson... never never trust another man... he may look u in the eye n be ur brother n ass fuck with u... n he may turned out to be the one who brought u down without u knwing its him.... so... dont trust anyone...

jus as i typed... i jus ate kit kat chunky... gosh... cant really resist the temptation... god knws wat will happen to my face tmr morning... 1 more pimple? or 2 more... or 3?!?!?!? nothing will be great actually... haha

todae spent the whole day sleeping... got much rest which is lacking for the past few days... the thunderstorm in the afternoon jus made me felt more sleepy n my bed cosier... haha... tmr back to camp... back to reality n the place i suddenly hated most... a place i found to be getting more n more difficult to be in... it made me live in fear everydae... the people inside are jus mad people n dying to get a peice of u... perhaps this is wat commandos really are... born to lead n born to kill.... jus totally sick of commandos... how i wish i can get out of army nw... willing to pay all my money n assets to buy my freedom back...

hope this sunday i can be removed from duty... sick n tired of it... guard duties are driving me crazy... time seems to pass really really n fucking fast when i was having fun... but it chose to stood still when it comes to doing duty... kind of bored me to death n frustrates me as well... it will jus let my mind wonder around... think of unhappy things and things i dont want to remember... nw got extra stuff to think abt... thats my case... everydae jus live with mental stress... living in fear... wats my verdict? how heavy is my punishment? hate this type of life... hate to be in the guessing world where my fate n destiny is not in my yard...

wat the damn hell... jus abt to post wat i wrote 5mins ago n all my stuff jus gone!!! irritating... wan to select all to change font size to huge in the end gotta retype all the stuff i wrote... think this time jus cut it short... super tired already...

my life jus got worse... developed piles n it hurts a lot... it hurts when i sneeze...cough... n sit dwn... arhhh... next week seeing specialist... hope to get well.....if not mama sae need operation lo... shag... operation on my ass? no thanks... last week should have go see doct le... but because of the guard duties on hand....if doct giv me Mc or watever... boss sure wont be happi... feel i malinger maybe? so jus endure a bit more then go see doct todae... anywae... tmr on MC... so its time to get a well-rested dae... blood pressure rising... 144/82... too stressed up... think there will be a day when my body burst.... BLOOM... going to slp nw....

todae evening nothing to do... seems bored... haha.... no program.... one protecting the nation n the other busy betting soccer at home......so wat else i can do other than staying home?

todae went over to bugis to pray... as usual... veri crowded.... then went over to pool fusion as usual for 9 ball game with shaoliang... initially played veri poorly... alot of things bothering me as i go... camp...personnel stuff..... until i was so frustrated with myself that i couldnt think anymore....then beginning to find form into the game... alright la... but at the end of the dae... mentally tired... cos need a lot of concentration....

while on the wae home, there is a fashion show at bugis junction... ok la... so so onli... quite alot of photographers to shoot pic of the models onli....haha.. joker... out of the blue frens jio me go MOS... shag... they thought i was still at bugis at 9++.....wat the hell... i cant possibly stayed there from 4+ till 9++.... haha... initially wan to jio them to watch movie de... firewall... should be a gd show... but nobody pei wo watch... so sad... maybe watching myself sometime next week... will be a gd n new experience to watch alone... haha... in the end... turn them dwn for the clubbing session... tmr got duty... if no duty... i sure do dwn immediately... n wack some fun... haha...

going off soon to slp.... the guard duties are getting a toll on me.... hope next week todae i be still at home... typing my blog......

jus looked at my blog......find my life is veri boring......everydae wat i wrote here is all abt army.....guard duties... how shag i am... n then after that...no more...... wat a boring nerd..... todae should hav gone swimming..... but lack of motivation n scared of tiredness..... later afternoon gonna went for praying n then look for some fun....haha.... lack of places to go already... feel like clubbing but thats not my cup of tea... too boring there n crowded... n stuffy... i will faint there.... haha... think will be a normal pool session n then perhaps go for a drink at pub at clarke quey... ken on duty todae.....left me n shaoliang to fend for urselves....haa.... anywae.....ken don like to go such places...... so 2 of us easier.... haha

this is a shag week.....jus done my duty last night n another duty coming up tmr... todae fell sick in camp... runny nose + slight fever... hope to get pass tmr duty without a hitch... however i was thinking.....if i can get past tmr... sun another duty.....shag..... later taking med n go slp le.....tmr will be a better dae....

interview at SMU was fun... hope i impress the panel of interviewers...

Just got a shocking of my life!! SMU just called me and ask me to go for an interview this wed!! wow... i was surprised and shocked at the same time.... realli out of the blue.... nw need to prepare the documents and be ready... my future depends on wed.....cant afford any missups..... i'm so happy.....after so mani yrs of receving "Thank you for applying our university" nw i got a call up......yeah.... i wan to be happy....make me fucking happy!!

todae is sundae.....but doesnt seems like a sundae.... cos theres no sun... jus came back from swimming..... feeling tired.... think take a bathe n going to take a nap..... jus saw her friendster.... she jus posted new pics of her n her new bf.... shes looks veri happy...... should i feel happy for her? i don no... time to let it go......i must realli let it go.... should i fight for my love? i don realli knw...... wat are done cannot be undone.... i should realli wish them all the best...

jus got home.... jus finished duty again.... yet again.....haha... lucky... supposed to be doing todae...but fren swop duty with mi... sat changed to fri... wat a bargain... lucky... next few weeks no more weekend le.....all duties... next week will be tough... doing duty on wed...fri... sun... then mondae 3am gotta go for live firing... going back onli on tues night... shag.... bored army life... damn funni this morning....spent 45mins to wake my fren up... he supposed to lead the men for training....in the end pass the shit to another fren.....haha..... call him up.....he open his eyes n close back again....haha.... shag......

yesterdae heard of another funni story......my fren's car got kissed by a police car....instead of pulling over....the police car immediately on the siren n drove off.....my fren was damn mad...haha..... called the police and they did nothing... spent more than 24 hours jus to find out which division the car came from... they sure wan to cover themselves up de.....shag.....

going off to rest le.....later think going out..... maybe....life is too boring....

great to be at home.... jus finished guard duty last night n its not veri gd... shag duty.... don rake it up le... glad to be able to be home.....miss home n my parents..hahah.. nw awaiting orders....... waiting for the axe to fall nw... then 2 weeks in camp le....nw enjoying as much as i can... keke... a bit not feeling well....past 2 days been raining veri heavily... esp yesterdae....camp was in flood..... the drains overflowed...roads filled with water... lighting strikes.... gosh... parade sq 4 giant flood lights are struck by lighting....shag..... got myself half wet n i just carry on my duty.... n nw its shag time...hope i can recover... this month duty is tough... this sat n for the next 2 weekends i be doing duty..... weekend burn..... and i also tio gd fri..... not a gd fri though....keke...

jus saw her friendster... shes in a relationship nw... think shes with the guy le.... well.... anticipated this dae will come..... wish her all the best n hope he realli treat her well..... hope she live in happiness everydae.... only then my heart will die.... die for gd...

gosh.....its raining cats n dogs nw....wat a moody sun..... n wat a drastic change of weather....its was bright n sunny in the morning and early afternoon when i was swimming... the sun was scorching hot then n nw it was having a rain storm... so unpredictable... humans r so unpredictable....needless to sae abt the weather.....

jus finished packing my stuff for my 2 week hoilday in camp......except to iron my uniform.....shag..... moody.... think cos of the weather... haiz...

yesterdae went orchard see see.....long time nv go there le..... the last time i was there it was christmas then... shag... nothing much changes.... the crowd is still the same..... millions of them....cant even walk properly... had a dinner at don no wat shop... food still ok....haha.....next up was the usual pool session.... out of the blue shaoliang brought a gal to the place.....haha...... so sianz....these few weeks play pool no feel...no form..... think its the case on my mind ba.. felt so troubled.... so funni.... then the gal sae i look veri familiar to her.....turn out to be its her yr 1 classmate.....shag... the world is so small...

signing off here.....next update will be 2 weeks later......

wat the damn hell happened to my blog??!! out of the blue all fonts became so small... weird... todae met up with poly frens for gathering...not bad....had dinner at swenson n then ktv... ktv was fun... sang oldies n mani songs....but feel a bit sad though.... thought of some old stuff while singing songs.....even though sang back the same song with my fren....the feel is different n i don hav the tone to sing it back to as the past while with her.... think perhaps love songs r meant for couples ba....not for frens.... think the wae i sing is onli when i with her ba.... n its gone jus as shes gone.... wont get the feeling back anymore....

tmr don no will be doing wat... hope to enjoy as much as possible before i served my confinement... jeff out of the blue ask mi go clubbing tmr.....haha.....MOS....but kinda of don like the place......see how ba......he will call mi tmr.....

~Afraid Of~

- Injections
- People tickling me
- Scary movies
- Cockroaches

~DISLIKES~

- My clumsy acts
- Vegatables
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- Latecomers

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- I like to disturb animals
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- Hello Panda
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- Coco krunch with milk every morning
- Milo powder
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- Nature
- Roti Prata
- Melted cheese

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